Friday, May 15, 2009

Where Do You Go?

I've always wondered what happens to you after you die and I think more now than ever because my grandma is headed that way soon. It always comes to mind how I would want to die, like I even have a choice. LOL

I really couldn't even begin to imagine what it must be like for her to slowly have my memory go and not understand fully what's going on. This last move has really brought her down because of that. I don't think I could handle that happening to me at all. I'd much rather my body go before my mind. On the other hand, if I had some sort of lung thing like mesothelioma then I'd be just as upset if I had to go around toting a oxygen tank or something. Dying just stinks now matter what and I think it's that fear of the unknown that makes it so difficult. I hope I can embrace it before it happens.

1 comments:

Jem said...

I don't think anyone really "knows"
where you go after death, but in the mean time you need to concentrate on the here and now.
Make everyday count as it would be the last and try to do at least one thing each day that is nice for yourself or someone else.
You need at least one happy thought a day.
Then think about that deed or thought just before you go to sleep at nite and you will find it is better than counting sheep.
My mom was in a coma for 31 days due to an accident and when she passed away I was there with her.
I held her in my arms at that moment and I felt the life go out of her and a feeling of weightless come into her.
It was like I felt her soul leave her body and a calmness enter her.
I can't imagine not sharing that moment with her and I am so glad I was there.
Such a glorious closure we both had.